Last week we took a pregnancy test and it was.....(insert drum roll)......POSITIVE!!!!!!!!
We are on cloud nine and could not be more happy right now to welcome another little one into our beautiful family. I feel giddy and excited and not at all what people told me I would feel like. I heard stories from people as well as on the Internet saying that this pregnancy would be different but you wouldn't focus on it all. Boy are they wrong! I guess that's what happens when you try and want something with all your heart.
Jason and I always knew we wanted kids and after Brayden came we knew we at least wanted one more so after Brayden's first Birthday we started talking about it. Things kept coming up such as job changes and insurance changes and we knew that we didn't want to get ourselves in a bind. Finally, in January I left my cushy job at a company I had been with forever and decided to chase a dream...well a couple of dreams. I transitioned into Real Estate, we had health insurance and we were ready.
The first month we tried I was nervous and excited and assumed that we were going to find out we were pregnant because conceiving Brayden had seemed so easy. Well, that month and another 5 went by and nothing. I started to get frustrated and sad. Soon it seemed like everyone I knew or someone they knew was getting pregnant. The streets were full of pregnant people walking around with their sweet little bump. It was torture! We did all we knew how to do and that was pray and pray a lot. We even talked to my OBGYN who told me basically to not worry until we had tried over a year but I couldn't help thinking there was something wrong with me. It was definitely a hard time but I really trusted God in his divine timing and felt that as much as I wanted to give Brayden a brother or sister that if it wasn't in God's plan then we would be ok. I even went and bought some over the counter ovulation tests just to make sure I was ovulating. It was literally my little (or big- don't judge me) obsession.
It is the craziest thing here myself tell the world but also a giant relief. It's pretty funny we put my maternity clothes up in the attic a few weeks ago to clean up our closets. We joke that we should have put them up months ago! Anyways, I'm in pure bliss and feeling great so far. It's truly amazing how much you appreciate something when you trust God and when the time is right...He blesses you.
I read this great blog the other day about a woman who went through 2 years of infertility to go on and have a wonderful pregnancy and beautiful baby boy through IVF. It was truly amazing to see how much gratitude poured out of her for that baby. There seems to always be a lesson.
Here is a great scripture: For this child, I have prayed. 1Samuel 1:27
~Cecilia
